love story.

My new schedule pretty much rocks! God's really using it to humble myself before the Lord and it's just awesome. Indescribable! I can't believe that I only have 11 short days left of it though! I'm going to miss KC a lot, but at the same time... I'm ready to come home. What I've experienced here has been awesome - completely out of this world. But this season of my life is over and it's time to press on and move forward (though I know God's not done with me here quite yet...like I said...still 11 days to go!). He's filled me up and I'm ready for the next steps He has for me. It's going to be hard, but I know He's hold me up - any fear but of Him is pointless. That's right fear of man- vamoose. If He tells me to do something.... I'm gonna do it. I count it all as loss right!!!?

Anyway, what I want to right about -

I've come to realize that what I have with God is truly the ultimate love story. It took him 6 years to truly have me. He pursued me constantly and continually pulled me out of the miry clay - though He did this, it never failed. I continually turned on my heel and walked away from Him. I just refused to love Him back. Until one day...one glorious day- I was finally captivated by His lovingkindness. One day I realized that all was loss compared to Him. He is my Beloved and my friend forevermore. Now that He has me, it is an ongoing pursuit. He pursues every hidden area of my heart, and I Him. He challenges me everyday to go deeper, to seek Him out and He loves on me everyday and finds a way to fascinate me even more. I am seeking to be a whole-hearted lover of God - knowing that I am ruined for nothing else is life-changing. There is no return at this point - I've burned all the bridges and there's nowhere to go but forward. I will come out of the wilderness leaning on my Beloved (Song of Solomon 8:5) - He's showing me the true purpose of wilderness seasons is to dry up all other sources of life and come out in the end with this beautiful picture. Truly the most fantastic thing in the universe right there - marvelous picture, marvelous feeling, perfect unity with God because all you can do is lean on Him with all your weight...awesome. I cannot get over how amazing this Man is. This God that is ravished by a single look from me. This excellent God who came down to the Earth as a man to die on a tree - all for love. guys ... you don't understand the majesty of this... the humility of this ... the beauty of this ... this next sentence moves me to tears anytime I think on it ... that man on the tree was GOD. god Himself put Himself in the most vulnerable position and allowed a woman to nurse Him as a baby. And later let men beat Him to a pulp and nail Him to a tree - to hang there, humiliated -- all to redeem us back to Him. All so He could be with us again - *sigh* what a romantic <3 haha :)

How can we live for anything but Him when this High Priest in heaven chose to be vulnerable before all just to allow love and mercy to enter into our lives.

This....this is our God. This is my love story.