Stare at the well.

I've had some difficult weeks. I just couldn't get a drink from the well of life. I would dip my ladle in, and come up dry. It seemed that the more I tried, the more I gave up. If that makes sense.

Okay, I didn't give up, I just didn't try as hard. The thought of trying was always in my head, but the action of trying, faded into the distance. My life slowly got busier, and it still is busy. But needless to say, the effort lacked more and more. The thoughts of the well faded a little bit too, but still was there constantly; not quite at the forefront as it was before.

I know we all go through these seasons. It's part of the human cycle, I think. We learn a lot from it. It's in these seasons that we learn that we are not the ones who walk to the well, it is actually Jesus who carries us to the well. Unfortunately, that means embracing ourselves as weak. That stinks, but it's necessary. I'm beginning to see how weak I really am, and that with a lack of the Lord's strength, life ain't all that - harder then it should be too. I'm not at the well yet by any means, but, I feel a shift in the atmosphere and in my spirit man. It certainly is only the beginning. I had a revelation today, as I forced myself to stare at the well for a couple hours; asking the Lord constantly to catch the little foxes (as they can be very distracting and amusing). I realized, hey - I'm not getting anything out of this. Sounds enthralling, I know. But the thing is, is that I was doing the ACTION. That's a beautiful thing. For you science people out there, let me put it in the words of Newton... "For every action, there is a reaction." That reaction isn't always immediate, believe me, it can take a while. The trick is, is to remain faithful to that action. I felt a shift in my heart today, I was a little more joyful. Something I've missed dearly. I am not drinking deeply of the well just yet, but staring at the well - oh, that longing is returning. That lack of motivation I was feeling, is still a feeling, but it shall grow dim in the midst of seeing a well filled with satisfying, delicious water that is so much better than the wine of this world. I must have a drink, I will give no rest to my soul until I can have it.

For those of you in the same season as I ... don't give up. Sit and stare at the well. It sucks, but it's gonna be worth it. The Lord hasn't forgotten about you, He just wants you to see the beauty of the well itself... I think we can often take it for granted. It's a mode of humbling us I think. I know I'm humbled. I will only go lower from here, so that I can have more of Him.

And to the devil, I have some things I want to say to you;
I SHALL NOT BE DISCOURAGED, FOR THE LORD GOD DELIGHTS IN ME, AND HE SHALL LEAVE NO GOOD WORK UNFINISHED.
Take that truth and walk away mister. I'm no fool.