Groaning for more

I’ve recently come back to the hunger and desire I once had for the Word of the Lord. It’s so strong within me sometimes that it hurts. What I’ve noticed though, is that I’m not eating it quickly, I’m taking time chewing the word. I’ve been stuck on these passages for the past few days; it gives me such revelation of the awe that I have for the Lord. It’s a subtle reminder of who God is. That He’s compassionate, that He remembers me, even when He is far away. It encourages me to keep fighting for what the Lord has set me apart for, I’ve added emphasis to certain scriptures that have really been hitting my heart, but I’m in awe of how much I am desiring the scripture of old.

Don’t read this lightly and quickly, please. Read it, read it, read it again; all the while admiring who the Lord is, for ‘this, I recall to my mind.’ – this is the truth, this is the light. It’s manna straight from the heavenlies.

Lamentations 3:21 – 33 … 37 - 41 … 49 – 51

This I recall to my mind,

Therefore, there is hope.

Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed,

Because His compassions fail not,

They are new every morning;

Great is Your faithfulness.

“The Lord is my portion,” says my soul,

“Therefore I hope in Him!”

The Lord is good to those who wait for Him,

To the soul who seeks Him.

It is good that one should hope and wait quietly

For the salvation of the Lord.

It is good for a man to bear the yoke in his youth.

Let him sit alone and keep silent,

Because God has laid it on him;

Let him put his mouth to the dust –

There may yet be hope.

Let him give his cheek to the one who strikes him and be full of reproach.

For the Lord will not cast off forever.

Though He causes grief,

Yet He will show compassion

According to the multitude of His mercies.

For He does not afflict willingly,

Nor grieve the children of men.

…

Who is he who speaks and it comes to pass,

When the Lord has not commanded it?

Is it not from the mouth of the Most High

That woe and well-being proceed?

Why should a living man complain,

A man for the punishment of his sins?

Let us search and and examine our ways,

And turn back to the Lord;

Let us lift our hearts and hands

To God in heaven.

…

My eyes flow and do not cease,

Without interruption,

Till the Lord from heaven looks down and sees.

My eyes bring suffering to my soul

Because of all the daughters of my city.

It’s not a matter of the knowledge you have of everything around you, it’s not a matter of how much theology you know and understand, it’s a matter of the love and passion you feel in your heart. Are you willing to fight for the relationship you have with God because you KNOW Him. Scripture is so plain about who He is, it’s so plain to see. It’s written for the eyes of babes; simpletons. Are you willing to cry out for the Lord day and night until He looks down and sees and moves on your behalf, (JEREMIAH 29:12-14 * see below) or are you going to half-heartedly walk around and hope that maybe something will happen? Lord, I want to be zealous for Your kingdom. I want to be burning with a desire so strong that it cannot be quenched, that it cannot be missed. I want to be a flame that is so strong that it consumes those around me. I want my eyes to be burning as Yours are burning. My Spirit cries out, my body aches; as a fire shut up in my bones; I will be weary of holding back the word of the Lord (Jeremiah 20:9 *See below).

Jeremiah 29:12-14

“Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you.”

Jeremiah 20:9

“Then I said, “I will not make mention of Him, Nor speak anymore in His name.” But His word was in my heart like a burning fire Shut up in my bones; I was weary of holding it back, and I could not.”