Time

Y'know... it's funny. For some reason, as human beings, we have this idea in our head that everything needs to happen right now. Not in a month, not in a few years...but now. Okay, so maybe it doesn't need to happen right now but we certainly want it to! I was going around doing things in the house that I normally don't feel like doing (cleaning and cooking... WOW, shocking, I know), and thinking and asking the Lord about some things.... it hit me - He has a plan... He's leading me to a certain point... but He's patient. I am not. I love that characteristic about Him even though it drives me insane sometimes. I so badly want to be at a certain intimacy with Him - somehow I keep getting off track because it's taking too long and I almost 'give up' in a way. But, see, looking at myself today and looking at where I was yesterday, where I was last week.... Where I was a year ago ... There's a difference.... there's actually a bigger difference than I realize from yesterday to today. The Lord constantly is changing my heart in the smallest ways that actually are HUGE when you zoom in on them. The way I use my time is way more efficient... what I eat, is healthier ... the Lord is changing my point of view day by day. It's amazing. Another thing that amazes me... the things that held my attention so much before... actually bore me now - best example. The tele. Honestly. I can sit there all day if I really have nothing better to do... but I'm completely bored all day. I can sit there for 30 minutes just to take a short break, then actually get up and walk away without wanting to go back. I struggled with that so much! And I deleted facebook again...which is always a nice upside to turning my time-wasting to a minimum. It helps me realign my focus and adjust emotions.

Anyway, the point is... The Lord changes our hearts everyday, bit by bit. We won't always get an astounding revelation or heart wrenching, tear jerking moment with the Lord - but He's always there, and He's always tweeking wires. He's always whispering to us, and constantly smiling. It's the truths that we meditate on that keep the good works turning. I like that; I like knowing I do nothing but know He's there and He moves my heart entirely just by being there. So time, patience, sobriety...that's all we need. We're not going to be revivalists overnight. We're not going to conquer the enemy in one day... we simply need to sit and soak - let the oil fill us up. AND NO, the oil will not be quick to obtain. But how sweet it is.